Q&A

What’s one thing that’s happened to you that has made you a stronger person? My childhood.

Who do you think has influenced you to who you are today? My  father.

What is your favourite memory? probably the water fight I had with my mom in the house when I was little , I think she was having some sort of “fuck it” moment , we went through a few cases of water and absolutely flooded the place and ended up laughing so hard we cried as we slipped all over the place like crazy people . Or when me and my dad used to go sledding and nearly got decapitated a few times .

What is your biggest regret? Staying in an abusive situation for 11 years because I was told by someone I trusted to keep my mouth shut or it would get worse

Do you enjoy being a webcam model? More than you could ever imagine.

 

Who was your biggest crush and did you ever pursue it?  He was a blonde haired, blue eyed kid. I did pursue it , and when I did, he reenacted my cat getting hit by a car using a bottle of white-out. (we were 10)  

What is your greatest accomplishment? Becoming an exotic dancer in order to save up enough money to move out of the household I was in.

If you could travel anywhere, where would it be and why?  Any new place where I can make fantastic new memories and that I can fantasize about later on in life.

What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done? Basically all of 2016.

When and why did you start webcam modelling? Read Cesspool silence

What’s the furthest you’ve gone to actually meet somebody you’ve met online ? 8 hours, through a forest on a four wheeler, and then to hell and back. 

If you could buy a house with the money you save what kind of house would you get? One with no cockroaches.

What kind of girl are you, country, city, rockstar…? Mixture of ghetto,redneck and princess, for sure. 

What makes you eager to get online and go to work? The people I meet and connect with. We have a little network of who I actually consider family to me.

How was your experience while dancing?  Dancing taught me how to read people, how to stand up for myself, and how to count . 

When you smile, what goes through your head? Always something silly and cute, like my self talk to myself . “You got this little one”…”Little one has the powaaaa”…”Big day for little one.”  Yes I call myself little one. I am a little one. I am a bite sized ball of love .

Have you ever felt chained from your future or free from your past?  I am in a constant state of excitement towards my future. I have felt free from my past since I was 19 .

What makes you confident/strong? When I am in a good enough place where I can help others. 

What would you do for those who stand close to you? Give them 82 thousand dollars, a diamond ring, and my soul. (whoops)

Despite the dark times, what makes you happy 🙂 ?  Waking up sweaty, with morning breath, bed head, doing the chicken dance in the mirror, and thinking “damn , I am lucky to be able to amuse myself this much.”

What’s your favorite thing to do on cam? Definitely laugh and weird people out

Blinding Blue Lights

I can still feel you move through me ,under the blinding blue lights. Our two eager souls , searching for him in the crowd; that deafening Friday night .

The pills, sitting on the counter.

Singing to me, through a thin veil of matter .

You live in my soul , the brightest shining light . And when I hear the sound of the pipes , I know that one day , me and you will get it right .